This past week Marshall told me something that really resonated with me. When I mentioned graduation in two weeks and my PRSSA Presidency coming to an end this week he said “I’ll finally get Delisi back.”
Is it true? Did I really go away in order to accomplish everything I set out to do? And then it started to hit me. He’s right.
I’ve given up my personal life and time for school, PRSSA, Guadalupe Home, LLS and planning a wedding. I honestly haven’t spent time with my friends in … well I don’t remember. Maybe 2 months ago? My matron of honor moved into a new house and I haven’t even had a chance to see it yet. I used to have time to go to the gym every day after school and I don’t remember the last time that happened. What about a weekend where I don’t do anything? Maybe last summer?
Last week we went to Oklahoma for a funeral and I was happy to meet his family, but I also stressed about being away. The entire drive to and from I was on an iPad typing away, taking notes and on my phone. Even when I’m forced to take some personal time the responsibilites don’t go away.
My strength and my weakness is that I always have to be doing something. I feel like ever since I moved to New York that upbeat, fast paced, hard working energy entered my body and never left. I don’t like to regret anything in life. Yes, I’ve started to realize that I’m doing too much. But I also know that it’s all for a reason. In less than 2 weeks I will turn 29 and graduate from UTSA. And all the days after that will be a chain reaction leading up to my wedding and a new job.
Maybe I have gone away for a little while. But my family and friends know it’s all for a reason. Success isn’t magic it comes from hard work. And I’m fine with a little bit of sacrifice if it means I have a better future.